Saturday, May 29, 2010 @ 12:50 AM
Listen to me love.

Idk what's coming right up after this. After yesterday i felt a huge different between us already. Our friendship wasnt only a year,but years. We did'nt only fight and walk away once,but times.I dont know if we can make it through this tgr again. Cos i've lost my confidence. For you to choose me over him is sucha MIRACLE. I know. Tell me how many times you hurt me, bcos of him? you ditch me bcos of him,you stood up for him as if everything was my fault, all these tasha,already shows me,you dont need me like how you need him. Don't ever try to lie to me,don't ever.Dont ever try to make me feel good w all these lies,cos it hurts me deeper when i already knew the truth. Dont tell me you love/need me as much as you need him. Bcos the ans is im way below under him,listed in your life.I knew you before he knew you,if he,leaving you is hard as hell,what about me? I may not meet you as often as he meet you but for me,i'll still love you no matter how far or close we are,well for me. Idk how about you. You drive me crazy w every seperation we need to make. Well,leaving you isnt easy for me. I cried when we need too,letme ask you,do you too? Your tears was only for him,i know tasha. All this while,i've a question to ask you,it's really bugging me,can i ask you now? Do you really meant it when you said i was part of you? Do you meant it when you say i love you? I really tried hard as hell to make you see how special you are,how much you meant to me. No matter how much i've tried,you can never see. Yes,i have my others girls like what you said,but please,can you understand,w/o you im still incomplete. To tell you,everyday you will be in my mind. Rmbr bfr this? Everything seems to be okay,perfect. But i kept telling myself,im scared to loose you once again. If you have never meant much to me,i would never say i had been hurted by you,suffering life w/o you,bcos i meant it when i said ,you're part of me.Maybe you didnt know all this while how you talk to me about your boyfriend,how much you love him ,how much you need him,how afraid you are to loose him,hurts me. Bcos i rly hope,you knew tht's how i feel about you too. I dont know how hard, how far more i must go to make you really see,how much i've love you.And since he's your priority,i'll set you free. Never say tht, i dont understand you,cos throughout my life i only understand one thing about you,you could never live w/o him.& I never want to see you living in suffer,therefore things will be changing here and then,but rmbr this, whats gonna happen next isnt wht i wanted,but it's a sarcrafice i made for you cos im not willing either. I wanna see you happy tasha,im not a person who wants everything by her ownself. c= I'll always be here,if you need me.Neither am i staying nor leaving,maybe i'll just be hanging around,waiting for the perfect time to come by.Just know how to takecare of yourself sundal~ =P hahaha..sigh. Much misses.c=
Yes label me as lesbian or wtv,but im not. One truth here,i love my girls more than anything elses.
p/s: im not againts my girls getting attc. but i mind when they didnt knw how to be fair.
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